You can either ignore what I'm writing lately, or read what you want into it, I don't care any more. I no longer feel that I have to justify my actions because whatever those actions are, it is plain that they are futile.

I'm not glad that school is over. It means I see people less, work just a little bit more, and have not much to do with my time. I would really like to write a novel about the way i see life, but I'm not sure how to start nor am I sure how to go about it.

Alot of things are wearing away at me at the moment, and I often wish that I cou have an outlet like GJ, like I used to, where I could write what I really felt and only the people whom I want to read it could read it, and all of the people that could get offended by what I say, upset by what I say, or judge me for what I say and do, just couldn't see what I had to say for myself. A place where Dayle and Laurel and Kel can see what I'm thinking, and I can say whatever is in my head (or heart) at the time.

I just want to be honest, and its hard because I don't know the truth well enough to be honest about it. I don't know where I stand enough to form real hopes for the future. But God I can wish... I can wish and dream and cry...

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<sub>"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for."
- Dead Poet's Society

"I like the dreams of the future better than the history of the past." - Patrick Henry</sub>

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